Mature Spiritual Love

The things we do, the actions we perform that are not distracting to our ongoing worship of God have nothing to do with the details of those actions. It is above all the unconscious exercise of our love for God that validates someone's apostolate. It is by what we do that proclaims God, the effervescent physical decanting of the actual inner experience. How we walk. How we stand. The manner in which we sit. How we pick things up. The way we hold things in our hands. None of this is conscious or acted. It just is a natural outflow of respect and awe and humility, which reflects the distrust of what we have been taught to plan. And it is certainly anything but a habituation of any sort. It is not political in the broad sense of the term.

People today have a really difficult time understanding this because they are convinced that the sacrifice of one's personality and especially the sacrifice of creativity and spontaneity to be too personally nihilistic. It takes realizing that there is a fatal flaw that comes with inserting our self unconsciously into all of this which compromises our ability to judge our own cause. And in so doing we remain prejudiced and deficient in understanding what is there. We are not deliberately blinded to reality - to God - but it is not until we realize just how unprofitable it is for us to exercise ourselves in life that we can accept the situation as life is. At the opposite extreme, no one can be themselves by simply abandoning their thoughts and actions. It takes the simple acceptance that we are loved and do not need to either insert ourselves into life or punish ourselves in order to become what amounts to be what can only be understood as self-heroism at work in our lives and the culture at large.